anxiety, Dane, David

Back in the Day

Last night I attended a divorce party for one of the nurses I work with. It was at a pub with good food, drinks, and a mixture of people I knew and/or recognize from work and people I didn't know. It was pleasant... but here's my problem. Something I realized last night... I have this… Continue reading Back in the Day

memoir, memories, mother, Uncategorized

I’ll give you the fucking 83 cents!

I packed the kids up into the car and set out to the East coast in a hurry. I had received a call from my mother telling me that my grandfather was dying imminently. As I neared the 16 hour mark of driving (having stopped only briefly every three hours or so for gas and… Continue reading I’ll give you the fucking 83 cents!

Adventures in Dating, anxiety, David, depression, memoir, memories, mother, relationships, Wyatt

Somatic Symptoms and Problematic Memories

I made a discovery while talking to my therapist yesterday. I suppose I just hadn't thought about it before as both topics are separate in my head for the most part. But yesterday, we as we were working on trauma response, as we transitioned from talking about specific memories of Wyatt to specific memories of… Continue reading Somatic Symptoms and Problematic Memories

depression, mother, Posts With Off Site Links, weight loss

You Got Any Grapes? Waddle Waddle

I've reached a new low... well, rather, high. My weight is at the highest it's ever been and it made itself all the more apparent as a problem while I was on vacation the past couple of weeks. Forget that it wasn't as easy to find souvenir T-shirts in my size... At least they still… Continue reading You Got Any Grapes? Waddle Waddle

Medical

Changes are afoot for Emma, Corrections nurse.

Changes are afoot for Emma, Corrections nurse. I figured I best update everyone before I go on with more narratives. I had an opportunity fall into my lap last week. As you know, I've been working as an RN in a correctional setting. I have been working in a county jail for the past 7… Continue reading Changes are afoot for Emma, Corrections nurse.

Medical, memories, Uncategorized

We Will Take Care of You (a Corrections Nursing Story)

She was a pretty young lady. Tattoos peeking out from under her clothes, make up well done - eyeliner was winged in a way I could never hope to pull off. Not yet in her orange scrubs that prisoners wore, which was unusual but it was owing to the booking officers being too busy to… Continue reading We Will Take Care of You (a Corrections Nursing Story)

Dan, memories, nostalgia, relationships, teenage years, youth

Reblogging Emma: Excerpt: Dan… or “No apologies. He’ll never see you cry.”

While I am working on some new content, please enjoy some of my older content over the next several days that I have not reblogged before 🙂 (April 27, 2015) **Hi all, working on a few ideas that aren't pulling together quite right just yet... so I decided to post another excerpt from my book. This… Continue reading Reblogging Emma: Excerpt: Dan… or “No apologies. He’ll never see you cry.”

Jimmy, memories, nostalgia, relationships, teenage years, youth

Reblogging Emma: Another Doppelganger (Jimmy) and a school girl crush

While I am working on some new content, please enjoy some of my older content over the next several days that I have not reblogged before 🙂 (May 29, 2015) I mentioned in my previous Eurovision post that Stig Rästa from Estonia reminds me of one of my friends back in the US. I pointed it out… Continue reading Reblogging Emma: Another Doppelganger (Jimmy) and a school girl crush

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Reblogging Emma: In The Courtyard

While I am working on some new content, please enjoy some of my older content over the next several days that I have not reblogged before 🙂 (August 10, 2015) I walked out into the courtyard; it was a perfectly sunny Swedish springtime day. I took a glance around, conscious of the fact that I was… Continue reading Reblogging Emma: In The Courtyard

memories, nostalgia, teenage years, youth

Reblogging Emma: Being Desdemona

Last time I reblogged myself was 2017, so I think it's not too soon to redo a reblogging series again now... While I am working on some new content, please enjoy some of my older content over the next several days that I have not reblogged before 😉 (Aug 13, 2016) Today I was out… Continue reading Reblogging Emma: Being Desdemona

Best Friends, Dan, Maja, memories, svea, teenage years

Mosaic of My Life

There is a really beautiful trend happening on Tik Tok right now. Yes, yes... I'm an elder millennial and I Tik Tok. I don't wanna hear about it. Anyway, this trend is about telling what things that you do, say, or think came from other people in your life. It is called the mosaic challenge… Continue reading Mosaic of My Life

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Corrections RN

I should be working on my 10 page research paper... The last big assignment before the end of this semester. That and less than a handful of discussion boards. Just Summer and Autumn semesters left to go to get my BSN. Woo. Feels like it's actually within reach. I am totally procrastinating on this paper… Continue reading Corrections RN

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Autobiographies I Love

After having posted another post yesterday about a current autobiography I am totally loving and relating to, I figured I'd compile a list of ones I have on my book shelf currently I'd recommend. I'll put links in the captions should anyone want to buy them. At the end, I will post links to the… Continue reading Autobiographies I Love

books, memoir, Uncategorized

This Will Only Hurt A Little

For those of you that have followed me for awhile, it won't come to any surprise that I have read a new autobiography that I love. Well, ok, this most recent one I've experienced is actually an audiobook I've been listening to on my hour and fifteen minute commutes to and from work. I got… Continue reading This Will Only Hurt A Little

Best Friends, Dane, David, relationships

You and Me, Emma

Dane and I are talking again... To an extent. For those of you that have followed me for the past several years, I'm sure you are sighing and rolling your eyes at this point. "What the fuck, Emma," I hear you mutter under your breath. "Just walk away and for fucks' sake stay away." Ok,… Continue reading You and Me, Emma

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Huge Bag of Gourmet Cheese

Glad Sankta Lucias dag, allihopa! Things are going very well in Emma's life these days. I am devoting myself to writing today on a rare day off where I have not many other tasks that need completing... So hopefully I will be able to get a few more narrative posts scheduled for you all. I'd… Continue reading Huge Bag of Gourmet Cheese

Dan, Dane, David, Husband, Jimmy, Sven, Viktor, Wyatt

I Was A Slut For Sleeping With Him

Write it down, I'm told. Anything you can remember, just write it down. The thing is you want me to remember, to recall events, to be able to tell you about them - but you fail to understand that these particulars, the particulars I am ashamed of, were not that important to me. Not in… Continue reading I Was A Slut For Sleeping With Him

anxiety, depression, Husband

Unpack All The Boxes

I am aware. I am aware of the fact that my actions and reactions in relationships can be categorized as bad, just as bad. Perhaps even worse. Considering I've had such actions used against me. Relationships that changed my entire view of how relationships work and how to, shall we say... survive them. Emotional manipulations,… Continue reading Unpack All The Boxes

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She’s Glorious

I splurged on a new laptop. You guys... she's glorious. She's an Asus Vivobook. It was just in time, too. I ordered her because I'm starting my BSN next semester, and I happened to make a butt tonne of money at my travel nursing job last week (three days of work and made more than… Continue reading She’s Glorious