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Trivializing our experiences

A few days ago, I read a woman’s blog in which she spoke of a severe flash back she had in relation to a previous abusive relationship.

At first I was very much touched by her account, and then… she said “don’t ask!!” her who this (apparently godly?) man had been as she won’t ruin his reputation and had forgiven him or something. This… Just… Rubbed me the wrong way.

First of all, I’m not one to ruin reputations. I could give a flying fuck that she doesn’t want to name and shame… But I don’t know that I’ve ever seen anyone ask a stranger to do so anyway. It wouldn’t even cross my mind to ask for that information.

Though my friend has told me previously – I didn’t have to change names because “the guilty don’t deserve” such protection – I’m not that kind of person, anyway. So  the fact that she doesn’t want to share that doesn’t bother me. Perhaps it was the assumption that she would be pushed for the information that made me pause in the first instance…

But the thing that really bothered me was not even the forgiving of her abuser – forgiveness is good for the soul as it is – but the way she wrote it… The way she indicated that he was reputable and she seemed to have some kind of admiration or respect for the man anyway.

To me, this trivialized the experience she was trying to relay. This man had apparently hurt her so badly that when she had an accident – knocked herself unconscious and then waking on the floor – she started screaming and crying from what sounded like a PTSD reaction – flashing back to her old relationship. …and crying repeatedly for days afterwards.

But, um, ok…. Then tell us in a cheerful tone that he is a good man of whom you wouldn’t want to ruin his reputation.

I felt a gag reflex and couldn’t read further.

We do have a tendency to trivialize our own domestic violence experiences sometimes. I know I have done that myself in the past… So I have no interest in linking the post or calling her out personally in any way – but I want us to start thinking more clearly about this aspect of ourselves.

I want us to read our own writing before we hit publish and ask ourselves the question “Does any of this trivialize my story, my experiences, my feelings?” I want us to ask ourselves how will this post help another woman?

Will indicating some form of admiration or respect for our abuser in any other aspect assist other women in feeling that they too should push their gut feelings about their abusers aside and forgive because after all he is a good man in whatever other respect? Does that even make sense? I feel like I’m rambling now…

My point is this: Forgive if that makes your soul feel better; but don’t forget… don’t downplay your experiences, don’t let him off scott free. I don’t give a flying fuck if you name and shame – in most cases that may not be the best choice anyway… But don’t tell me or other women it’s because of not wanting to ruin a good man’s reputation.

He ruined his own reputation the very moment he raised his fist to you. He is not a good man if he knocked you out on a bathroom floor; the cold tiles of which have the ability to put you into PTSD like hysterics.

He is not a respectable man if he ever beat someone the way he beat you.


9 thoughts on “Trivializing our experiences”

  1. I completely agree! Good for her for having the courage & the ability to forgive him, it took me years to be able to say I truly forgave my attacker! But DO NOT give that man any sort of respect or make him out to be a good man, when he is clearly not!! A good man would NEVER hit a woman, EVER!!! I am so tired of these scumbags not receiving proper punishment or getting away with abusive, and this is exactly the reason why!!!

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      1. Not at all! Not to me, at least! I loved it! I thought what you wrote was amazing. Maybe I know you sort-of-well enough to get your meaning? Or maybe your intent was just clear 🙂 I liked it, personally!

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  2. Brava!! You spoke from the heart & you spoke brilliantly. It doesn’t matter who this person was, if the person was an abuser, the person is an abuser. Coming to terms with that helps in the healing process, I think. It allows me to disconnect from my previous feelings & it allows me to say “this wasn’t my fault.”

    But, everyone is different in handling their path.

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    1. Thank You 🙂 I try telling myself that everyone handles/sees things differently – but it still made me sad to think that either she hasn’t reached that point of not blaming herself, or perhaps she’s still trying to talk herself into the “it wasn’t so bad” mindset. If that’s what helps her cope, then so be it… but I would hope that that is not a view point that be allowed to spread very far… because it was that bad. It’s always that bad when abuse is involved, in my (current) view. Of course – I used to be there… I used to downplay my experiences in my mind and still try to think of him fondly… so we are all in different stages of our experience

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      1. I think that it’s a long journey & you’re right to try not to judge her by her opinion at this point in her path. Many of us will look back on something we wrote a long time ago & go “What the heck was I thinking?!” Hopefully this will be the case for her.

        I completely understand where you’re coming from – we don’t want people leaving abusive relationships/situations to see this sort of post/article & think that this mindset is the end goal for them. There’s much more to feel & understand as we grow, in all situations… but this is a biggie!


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