Best Friends, Dane, David, relationships

You and Me, Emma

Dane and I are talking again... To an extent. For those of you that have followed me for the past several years, I'm sure you are sighing and rolling your eyes at this point. "What the fuck, Emma," I hear you mutter under your breath. "Just walk away and for fucks' sake stay away." Ok,… Continue reading You and Me, Emma

Best Friends, Dane, Uncategorized

Light at the End of The Tunnel

I've been ridiculously busy. I know, I know... That's been my excuse every time I leave y'all hanging. But I'm back, for a moment, while I waste my energy on laundry and not on my studies... Last semester and it's all a bit overwhelming to be honest, but I'm staying positive - because I can… Continue reading Light at the End of The Tunnel

anxiety, Best Friends, Dane, Maja, svea, Uncategorized

Being a Nothing-of-Consequence

My anxiety is rising. I was in a good mood earlier today, and I plan on feeling okay tomorrow... The thing is that as the holiday season starts, I am catching ripples of anxiety - like waves of salt hitting my face, suddenly so that I don't have time to close my mouth. I sputter… Continue reading Being a Nothing-of-Consequence

Best Friends, Dane, Uncategorized

Unfortunately Irritating

I had a post pop up yesterday in my Facebook memories from years ago... A post that one of Dane's exes had written to me, after she had moved on and married someone else that is. It was a generic catch-up conversation, in which she noted she hadn't really spoken to Dane in awhile -… Continue reading Unfortunately Irritating

Best Friends, Dane, David, depression, relationships, Uncategorized

Smoldering Bridge

Dane unfriended me on Facebook. I told you that. He inferred I was disposable and it seemed he'd rather keep David in the FB friendship circle. Ok, fine then. I accepted that, though it hurt initially. The thing is, even after pushing me away so hard; trying his damnedest to put distance between us and… Continue reading Smoldering Bridge

anxiety, Best Friends, Dane, David, depression, relationships, support, Uncategorized

Being Disposable

I've discovered something definitive about my friendship with Dane this week. Well, ex-friendship at this point. I have become disposable to him. I'm not sure when exactly it happened, sometime over the last two years since I moved back to the USA. Up until that point... the last time I had talked to him while… Continue reading Being Disposable

Best Friends, Husband, Maja, nostalgia, Scandinavia, svea, Uncategorized

Revisiting Sandhamn

Over the weekend of July 13-15, I FINALLY got to go back to my happy place - Sandhamn. Really the island itself is called Sandö, Sandhamn is the main harbor area on one side... But I digress. This time, instead of just me an Svea, we had a full house! Hubs and I met an… Continue reading Revisiting Sandhamn

Best Friends, Husband, Medical, Uncategorized

Badass Flight Nurse, Viking, or Whatever

As I sit on this old couch, in front of a fire that is dying despite my best efforts to build the biggest, warmest fire ever, and as I sip my hot chocolate in an effort to stay warmer still... My heater died a couple of days ago, the day before a snow storm here… Continue reading Badass Flight Nurse, Viking, or Whatever

Best Friends, Husband, Maja, memories, svea, travel, Uncategorized

Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

I stated at one point, in a very privileged manner, on my 'About Emma' page that "My blog contains some entries that have to do with my travels – but not much. This is not a travel blog. It’s probably because I have had my own fair share of travel, and though there are still… Continue reading Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

Best Friends, Dane, David, depression, memories, relationships, Uncategorized

A Twinge of Betrayal

Had a revelation today. A potentially awful revelation. Dane and David are back in contact, via Facebook, if nothing else. I don't know how long they've been in touch. As far as I can tell it'll have been less than a few months since they reconnected on FB... but I don't really know. I sent… Continue reading A Twinge of Betrayal

Best Friends, Dane, Uncategorized

It was good to hear him laugh

Absence makes the heart grow fonder, I hope. Apologies that I've been MIA somewhat again. I started a new position in which I am training Full Time at a facility that's an hour away from my home at the moment. Will continue to do so for another two or three weeks before going to the… Continue reading It was good to hear him laugh

Best Friends, books, Fiction, memoir, memories, Movies / TV / Netflix, nostalgia, Posts With Off Site Links, svea, teenage years, Uncategorized, youth

Merry Christmas Karl-Bertil

Ever wonder about who or what may have influenced your point of view/ideologies without you realizing it? Ever come across a piece of music or a video clip as an adult that you used to listen to/watch as a child - the themes likely going over your head at the time, but now, as an… Continue reading Merry Christmas Karl-Bertil

Adventures in Dating, Best Friends, Dan, Dane, Husband, relationships, Uncategorized, Wyatt

Maybe There’s Hope for Me Yet

What makes him love me? What made the others not really care about me? Sometimes I think I'm pretty good at reading people, situations, and relationships... When I pay attention that is. At least I used to think that. Over the past year or so, maybe it's been brewing longer... I've realized I often don't… Continue reading Maybe There’s Hope for Me Yet

Best Friends, Dane, depression, relationships, Uncategorized

Until then… Bye Dane.

I let a friendship go today. Not just any friendship, a best-friendship. Something I've been mulling over for a while now, and while I was sitting in church this morning; likely listening to a very similar sermon to what he'd be listening to, I knew I just needed to rip the bandage off and get… Continue reading Until then… Bye Dane.

Best Friends, Dane, David, Husband, memories, relationships, Uncategorized

The Story of: A Full Force Whirlwind of Terrifying ClusterF**K

I summarized my dealings with David in one main sentence "A Full force whirlwind of terrifying clusterfuck," in my last post. Though I've written parts of the story here and there on the blog and my older readers pretty much know the details, I figured I would rehash the story a little in these last… Continue reading The Story of: A Full Force Whirlwind of Terrifying ClusterF**K

Best Friends, Maja, svea, Uncategorized

The feels… They hurt: Stockholm

I have a note to myself that indicates I should remember that I wanted to write about that time a car came through a window of an establishment, narrowly missing me - as my next blog post returning from Reblogging Rae for the past two weeks. Instead, it seems crass at the moment to write… Continue reading The feels… They hurt: Stockholm

Best Friends, Best of, Maja, memories, nostalgia, Uncategorized

Reblogging Emma: Maja Memory #1

Post # 8 from my recycled series - This one is from May 2015, new pictures added 🙂 Booop Booop Booop – that’s my poor rendition of the skype ring tone – …Booop. Oh My God, Maja’s calling! “Hush up!” I say to the kids. Maja and I had been playing Skype tag for almost… Continue reading Reblogging Emma: Maja Memory #1

Best Friends, Best of, svea, teenage years, Uncategorized

Reblogging Emma: Svea’s Summer House in Sandhamn

Post #7 for my recycled posts series - this one is from March 2015. All new pictures added 🙂 Summertime in Sweden meant that the sun wouldn’t set, the weather would warm just enough to warrant swimming and apparel of tube tops and shorts… but rarely did it get too hot. Summertime also meant that… Continue reading Reblogging Emma: Svea’s Summer House in Sandhamn

Best Friends, Best of, memories, nostalgia, teenage years, Uncategorized

Reblogging Emma: Anneke and Heather

Post #4 of my flashback/recycled posts - this one is from February 2015 - one of the very first memories I posted. “It’s your turn to sit in the back, Emma.” “Only if you put the top up!” I said as I climbed into the back of Heather’s convertible. It was the middle of Swedish… Continue reading Reblogging Emma: Anneke and Heather

Best Friends, Best of, Maja, memories, Uncategorized

Reblogging Emma: Word F**kery

Post #2 for my recycling of my content series. This one is from June 2015... It contains some additional content. I don’t know if it’s the insomnia I’ve had over the past few days, or simply the fact that I’ve been looking at and listening to other languages a lot this weekend. I have been… Continue reading Reblogging Emma: Word F**kery