David, depression, Husband, Medical, memoir, memories, Uncategorized

“It’s Been a Long Road” …or “Never Give Up on Your Dreams”

You guys. I did it. Not only did I pass my RN-NCLEX a couple weeks ago, but I have - as of today - officially become a Registered Nurse. I know I have written about how I wanted to be an RN for a long time on this blog before - years ago at this… Continue reading “It’s Been a Long Road” …or “Never Give Up on Your Dreams”

Medical, Uncategorized

Happy Birthday, Flo!

Today marks the 200th birthday of our glorious leader... err... founder... err, whatever. LOL This is why this year is the International Year of the Nurse 🙂 So let's all give a shout out to our girl, Flo... She's looking good for 200, isn't she? Ha ha

Medical, Uncategorized

I know! I KNOW!

I know, I'm sorry I always say I'll be back sooner rather than later... and then all of a sudden it is three months later. Good news is I have finished my college program and will soon be able to sit for the next set of boards soon and will then be able to call… Continue reading I know! I KNOW!

anxiety, David, depression, Medical, Uncategorized

The Night Is Dark and Full of Terrors

Sorry for the delay in updating, my psych appointment was postponed a few weeks. I had my follow up just yesterday afternoon. I discussed with my doctor the fact that I've seen the article about David... with his accolades saying he recently was promoted to Major, he's getting his Masters in a few months, and… Continue reading The Night Is Dark and Full of Terrors

anxiety, Medical, memories, Uncategorized

Suddenly, My Vision Was Gone

There I was, lying back in the dentist's chair with a nasal mask resting on my face. My limbs were tingling and I was slowly getting sleepy. I thought to myself 'I don't think nitrous oxide is supposed to knock me out... is it?' I had never had it before, in all honesty. I didn't… Continue reading Suddenly, My Vision Was Gone

anxiety, depression, Medical, Uncategorized

Psych Appointment and Update

I finally had my psych appointment yesterday. I was so tense and nervous all day, even after the appointment was over. Tension headache plagued me all day, I felt winded, and my tummy was upset most of the afternoon as well - primarily just before and through the appointment itself. I had about an hour… Continue reading Psych Appointment and Update

anxiety, depression, Medical, memories, Uncategorized

The Puzzle That is My Mental Health

I'm feeling a little bummed. A little unmotivated... It might be partially because my period is supposed to start tomorrow. It may be my kids being sick the past couple of days... or the random interactions or annoyances of the past few weeks that build up and push down on my mood. I dunno.... Or… Continue reading The Puzzle That is My Mental Health

anxiety, depression, Medical, Uncategorized

Wish Me Luck

I finally got a chance to see my doctor to talk to her about a possible anxiety diagnosis. The long story short is that she said it could very well just be anxiety mixed with depression, but my symptoms also lean towards the bipolar side of things. She said that treating bipolar is done with… Continue reading Wish Me Luck

Best Friends, Husband, Medical, Uncategorized

Badass Flight Nurse, Viking, or Whatever

As I sit on this old couch, in front of a fire that is dying despite my best efforts to build the biggest, warmest fire ever, and as I sip my hot chocolate in an effort to stay warmer still... My heater died a couple of days ago, the day before a snow storm here… Continue reading Badass Flight Nurse, Viking, or Whatever

Husband, Medical, Uncategorized

This Too Shall Pass – Like a Kidney Stone

I feel like a whiner. I don't like being sick, I don't like feeling like I shouldn't feel as bad as I do... But I do. I think I told you all about my kidney stone, right? Almost three weeks ago now I was in the emergency room getting diagnosed for the first time with… Continue reading This Too Shall Pass – Like a Kidney Stone

Husband, kids, Medical, memories, Uncategorized

Vaguely Nauseated

"Thank you..." I said quietly. He answered that I was welcome as he continued to spread a sheet over me and tuck me in. "You take such good care of me," I said; my voice cracking and my eyes welling up with tears, "I love you." He looked at me with concern, holding my hand… Continue reading Vaguely Nauseated

Medical, Uncategorized

15 days

I posted my last post 15 days ago, so wordpress tells me. I feel like such a bum. My desire to write and keep up with my blog has been thwarted by schedule and obligation. I have nothing better to describe to you today than what the heck has been going on to keep me… Continue reading 15 days

Medical, memories, Uncategorized

Fly free, Ada.

"How many towels, d'you think we need?" I asked my partner. "I dunno... Six?" "Hmmmm," I said before reaching out and grabbing handfuls of towels, washclothes, and a hospital gown. "This should be plenty." We both sighed, and turned back out of the linen closet. As we got to her room, I turned again to… Continue reading Fly free, Ada.

kids, Medical, memoir, memories, Uncategorized

“That was NOT OKAY! NOT. OKAY!!”

Well, since my emergency post from last time seems to be a success, I decided I'd tell you about another emergency I had to deal with once. Not life threatening, thank goodness... But it was adrenaline inducing nonetheless for me. I am fairly certain I haven't written about it here before. Many, many moons ago… Continue reading “That was NOT OKAY! NOT. OKAY!!”

Medical, memories, Uncategorized

“He’s Coughing Up Blood… What Do I Do?!”

Early morning sunlight blinded me for a moment. "Oh God," I sighed at the general direction of the sun as I lifted my hand to shield my face instinctively before pulling my visor down in front of my windshield. I yawned and started to consider whether my coffee was yet cool enough when I realised… Continue reading “He’s Coughing Up Blood… What Do I Do?!”

Best of, David, depression, Husband, Medical, memories, relationships, Wyatt

Happy Little Compartments

Compartmentalization: without realizing it; it's what I do. I divide my mind into happy little compartments. No... Not all of them are happy. The ones that are not happy... Well, I happily ignore. Well... I ignore them in any case. Self destructive behaviour I've had in the past, behaviour that I am ashamed of that… Continue reading Happy Little Compartments

depression, Medical, memories, teenage years, Uncategorized

Nurturing the Neuroses

I didn't really think my childhood was odd. I didn't notice the behaviors any of us may have had that possibly weren't quite right if you really thought about it. Depression and anxiety run rampant through me and my siblings. We compartmentalize, we cry or get angry for no good reason at times... We have… Continue reading Nurturing the Neuroses

Excerise, Medical, Uncategorized

Oh Geez…

That's right, I'm a mid-westerner now - so now I say things like "Oh Geez" and "Dontcha Know." Actually, I caught myself exclaiming "Oh GEEZ!" the first time I watched Fargo whilst in Australia and "Dontcha Know" somehow crept into my lexicon many years ago.... Albeit not as regularly. I'll blame it on the lady… Continue reading Oh Geez…

kids, Medical, Uncategorized

MIA, Medication, and Making Money!

Gosh, I feel like I've been MIA again... I suppose I have been, particularly given that my kids have been ill since Friday. They've been in high enough spirits and feeling over all well enough... But they are contagious and not allowed to go to school until we can procure the medication - which has… Continue reading MIA, Medication, and Making Money!

Medical, memories, Uncategorized

“What. The Hell. Do. You. Think. You. Are. Doing?!”

I hate to brag, but I am damn good at inserting urinary catheters. It's just something I did well when I worked at the hospital in Nashville. As such, we had at one point a woman that had attempted suicide which ended up not killing her, obviously, but left her permanently paraplegic. She required an… Continue reading “What. The Hell. Do. You. Think. You. Are. Doing?!”