Adventures in Dating, David, Excerise, memories, relationships, Uncategorized, Wyatt

Intense As…

I have a new friend you guise. Another American that recently moved here, and we have so much in common, it seems. I went to her house yesterday for an Art date (Just sit around and chat while being creative - it's been a good 7ish years since I've had a friend to do that… Continue reading Intense As…

Excerise, Uncategorized

Trial By Fire

I was inadequately prepared, my stamina that had been increasing a couple months ago had started decreasing again over the past month with the inability to train as much due to schedules. Coupled with sickness earlier in the week... all goddamn excuses, I know. But needless to say, BJJ training today was rough on me.… Continue reading Trial By Fire

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Anywhoozle – a review of Amy Schumer’s book “The Girl With The Lower Back Tattoo”

Good Morning, Lovelies. I finished Amy Schumer’s book “The Girl with the Lower Back Tattoo” last night, and Ariel Lynn has asked me to do an actual book review – so here we go!   Ms Schumer’s book is a collection of autobiographical essays that range from the expected humorous to challenging and at times… Continue reading Anywhoozle – a review of Amy Schumer’s book “The Girl With The Lower Back Tattoo”

Andre, Best Friends, Dan, Dane, David, Husband, Justin, memoir, memories, nostalgia, relationships, Sven, teenage years, Uncategorized, Viktor, Wyatt

Taylor Swift Gets Me : Reprise

While we’re on the topic of Taylor Swift, I went back and perused my posts from February 2015 – when I started this blog – and came across one of the first posts I had written that was also a I-have-a-girl-crush-on-Taylor kind of post. What I had done is compiled and mashed up several of… Continue reading Taylor Swift Gets Me : Reprise

Adventures in Dating, memories, nostalgia, relationships, Uncategorized, Wyatt

Our Song – You’ll Always be a Part of Me

As I drove along in the rain drizzle towards work, I listened to Taylor Swift’s Fearless album. It had been awhile since I had listened to Taylor, so I turned it up as I crested over the bridge headed out of town. Firstly, I’d like to say that some of you may know that I… Continue reading Our Song – You’ll Always be a Part of Me

Best of, David, relationships, Uncategorized, Wyatt

Trivializing our experiences

A few days ago, I read a woman's blog in which she spoke of a severe flash back she had in relation to a previous abusive relationship. At first I was very much touched by her account, and then... she said "don't ask!!" her who this (apparently godly?) man had been as she won't ruin… Continue reading Trivializing our experiences

memories, relationships, Uncategorized

Becoming Stronger

Wow, you guise. I've been receiving some awesome feedback about the guest post I did ( "One Day" ) for Carla Louise's blog - both there, on my reblog, and in my private messages. It's an amazing feeling to have others connect with your writing; and from what one blogger commented today - to receive some credit for… Continue reading Becoming Stronger

relationships, Uncategorized, Wyatt

My God, it’s been two years

I just realized that National Child Protection week is nearly upon us again, which led me to realize that it's been two years since I Said It Out Loud. Wow, has it really been that long? It's been a crazy two years. I look back on how I was in 2014, when I was figuratively… Continue reading My God, it’s been two years

memories, relationships, Uncategorized, Wyatt

Being a Desdemona

Today I was out to lunch with some of the Jiu Jitsu girls after training and one of them started to complain that she wanted to see the Melbourne Ballet company perform Romeo and Juliet at our local arts centre tonight - but no one would go with her. I told her I had been… Continue reading Being a Desdemona

depression, Excerise, Uncategorized

Work, Sleep, and Jiu Jitsu

I don't know how this happened. My blog used to be all memories, relationships, and themes regarding mostly domestic abuse and depression. Now... Fitness? Kickboxing? MMA? BJJ? Who the fuck would have thought? It's veering in a way I wouldn't have dreamed it would go when I started this blog. I mean... I am so… Continue reading Work, Sleep, and Jiu Jitsu

memories, relationships, Uncategorized, Wyatt

Equal parts puke and pride

January 2015, I looked Wyatt back up on facebook and sent him a private message with a letter attached. I decided that it was finally time to disagree with him. Last we had spoken, he didn't recall a bad break up. He said he still loved me. He didn't appear to acknowledge any issue with… Continue reading Equal parts puke and pride

Sansa Stark, Uncategorized

Sansa, My Queen

I did pretty well keeping away from Game of Thrones Spoilers this week... I don't have the appropriate channel package to allow me to watch it when it airs... so I usually see it anywhere from 2 days to a week late because my friend records it and graciously allows me to come over to… Continue reading Sansa, My Queen

Uncategorized

Rape Culture, or Why We’re Afraid of “Nice Guys”

  You who have been following me for a while will know I rarely make comment on current events in the media. I rarely write posts related to issues that are happening in the political or religious platforms – or anything that people would want to debate… But there is a particular issue in the… Continue reading Rape Culture, or Why We’re Afraid of “Nice Guys”

Best of, David, Maja, memoir, memories, relationships, Uncategorized, Wyatt

Fuckin’ A, Man… Fuckin’ A

**Liberal use of explicit language** I just watched Fear for the first time in... oh, I dunno... at least a decade, maybe more like 15 years. I messaged Maja several times during the movie - "Fuckin' A" coming from my keyboard more than once. So many fucking similarities to my relationship with Wyatt. A bit… Continue reading Fuckin’ A, Man… Fuckin’ A

Maja, memories, nostalgia, relationships, Uncategorized, Wyatt

Fear

I was talking to Maja about old movies tonight. I mentioned an '80s movie I watched after a long time last night - and how horrified I was at one part. I always expect '80s movies to get away with so much more than movies do today, yet this one part just... no. I'll write… Continue reading Fear

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Small Mercies in Self Defence

How do I even start? My daughter is taking a martial arts class this year; she goes three times a week. We started her in it primarily because she was dealing with some bullies last year at school and we wanted her to build some confidence and learn some skills to defend herself if need… Continue reading Small Mercies in Self Defence

David, Uncategorized

Different Dreams

I had a dream about David again the other night. It had been quite a long time since the last one. It's strange though how they make me feel now. I didn't wake up in a cold sweat. I didn't feel a crushing fear - even though the events in the dream ultimately saw me… Continue reading Different Dreams

Best Friends, Dan, memoir, memories, relationships, Uncategorized, Wyatt

Airing my dirty laundry

Sometimes I forget that people might get taken aback when I am frank about my personal life. I've never worried much about "airing the family's dirty laundry" as my parents called it. I would get scolded once in awhile for saying things that were supposedly our family figurative undergarments; but even now it was never… Continue reading Airing my dirty laundry

relationships

“A Love Lesson”

I've been reading Tyler Oakley's new book "Binge." While I wish I had time to sit down an read it in one fell swoop - I can't because of busy, but when I do I *ahem* Binge on it. While the book is much as a fan of Tyler would expect - lots of sex… Continue reading “A Love Lesson”

depression, Leroy

Public Service Announcement

Do me a favor y’all. If you ever have a guy in your life injure themselves via punching a wall (or any other hard surface), please… please, do not call them “stupid” or any other such synonym. It may be tempting to laugh and call them a dumbass or an idiot because obviously punching brick… Continue reading Public Service Announcement