anxiety, Dane, David

Back in the Day

Last night I attended a divorce party for one of the nurses I work with. It was at a pub with good food, drinks, and a mixture of people I knew and/or recognize from work and people I didn't know. It was pleasant... but here's my problem. Something I realized last night... I have this… Continue reading Back in the Day

Adventures in Dating, anxiety, David, depression, memoir, memories, mother, relationships, Wyatt

Somatic Symptoms and Problematic Memories

I made a discovery while talking to my therapist yesterday. I suppose I just hadn't thought about it before as both topics are separate in my head for the most part. But yesterday, we as we were working on trauma response, as we transitioned from talking about specific memories of Wyatt to specific memories of… Continue reading Somatic Symptoms and Problematic Memories

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You Got Any Grapes? Waddle Waddle

I've reached a new low... well, rather, high. My weight is at the highest it's ever been and it made itself all the more apparent as a problem while I was on vacation the past couple of weeks. Forget that it wasn't as easy to find souvenir T-shirts in my size... At least they still… Continue reading You Got Any Grapes? Waddle Waddle

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Changes are afoot for Emma, Corrections nurse.

Changes are afoot for Emma, Corrections nurse. I figured I best update everyone before I go on with more narratives. I had an opportunity fall into my lap last week. As you know, I've been working as an RN in a correctional setting. I have been working in a county jail for the past 7… Continue reading Changes are afoot for Emma, Corrections nurse.

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We Will Take Care of You (a Corrections Nursing Story)

She was a pretty young lady. Tattoos peeking out from under her clothes, make up well done - eyeliner was winged in a way I could never hope to pull off. Not yet in her orange scrubs that prisoners wore, which was unusual but it was owing to the booking officers being too busy to… Continue reading We Will Take Care of You (a Corrections Nursing Story)

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Corrections RN

I should be working on my 10 page research paper... The last big assignment before the end of this semester. That and less than a handful of discussion boards. Just Summer and Autumn semesters left to go to get my BSN. Woo. Feels like it's actually within reach. I am totally procrastinating on this paper… Continue reading Corrections RN

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I Was A Slut For Sleeping With Him

Write it down, I'm told. Anything you can remember, just write it down. The thing is you want me to remember, to recall events, to be able to tell you about them - but you fail to understand that these particulars, the particulars I am ashamed of, were not that important to me. Not in… Continue reading I Was A Slut For Sleeping With Him

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Unpack All The Boxes

I am aware. I am aware of the fact that my actions and reactions in relationships can be categorized as bad, just as bad. Perhaps even worse. Considering I've had such actions used against me. Relationships that changed my entire view of how relationships work and how to, shall we say... survive them. Emotional manipulations,… Continue reading Unpack All The Boxes

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She’s Glorious

I splurged on a new laptop. You guys... she's glorious. She's an Asus Vivobook. It was just in time, too. I ordered her because I'm starting my BSN next semester, and I happened to make a butt tonne of money at my travel nursing job last week (three days of work and made more than… Continue reading She’s Glorious

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Oh, Honey… You Haven’t Even Begun to See Me Overreact

I've gotten to the point in my life, finally, that I do not feel the need to allow others to walk all over me. Really, this trait has been with me for the past several years. Unfortunately, since moving to my current place of residence, I have noted that there seems to be a lot… Continue reading Oh, Honey… You Haven’t Even Begun to See Me Overreact

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Two times in a month – you lucky dogs, you

Here I am again, for the second time in a month - wow! It's been awhile since that's happened LOL. No news yet on the transfer. I should find out this week if it's been approved. Otherwise I have emailed my current manager (we just got an interim one as the other one just moved… Continue reading Two times in a month – you lucky dogs, you

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Busy Busy Business

Hello lovelies, It's been too long again, I know. I was, as I believe you know, starting that new job earlier in the summer. So with that, and the extra training days I was naturally more busy. THEN we suddenly got the chance to rent a new house that actually has AIR CONDITIONING (OMG YAAASSS)… Continue reading Busy Busy Business

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“It’s Been a Long Road” …or “Never Give Up on Your Dreams”

You guys. I did it. Not only did I pass my RN-NCLEX a couple weeks ago, but I have - as of today - officially become a Registered Nurse. I know I have written about how I wanted to be an RN for a long time on this blog before - years ago at this… Continue reading “It’s Been a Long Road” …or “Never Give Up on Your Dreams”

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I know! I KNOW!

I know, I'm sorry I always say I'll be back sooner rather than later... and then all of a sudden it is three months later. Good news is I have finished my college program and will soon be able to sit for the next set of boards soon and will then be able to call… Continue reading I know! I KNOW!

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Happy Birthday… I mean Blogday to me!

Oh geez, you guys (can you hear the increasingly midwestern accent encroaching in my vernacular? lol) It's my Blogaversary today! This blog is 5 years old. FIVE, count 'em… FIVE YEARS OLD! Where has all the time gone? My little baby has grown so much... and just think how much bigger it could have been… Continue reading Happy Birthday… I mean Blogday to me!

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Light at the End of The Tunnel

I've been ridiculously busy. I know, I know... That's been my excuse every time I leave y'all hanging. But I'm back, for a moment, while I waste my energy on laundry and not on my studies... Last semester and it's all a bit overwhelming to be honest, but I'm staying positive - because I can… Continue reading Light at the End of The Tunnel

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Being a Nothing-of-Consequence

My anxiety is rising. I was in a good mood earlier today, and I plan on feeling okay tomorrow... The thing is that as the holiday season starts, I am catching ripples of anxiety - like waves of salt hitting my face, suddenly so that I don't have time to close my mouth. I sputter… Continue reading Being a Nothing-of-Consequence

anxiety, David, memories, relationships, teenage years, Uncategorized, Wyatt

Freaking Frigid – A Memory

It came back to me today, a memory I'd like to say was vague - as I hadn't thought about it for a very long time. But it's not, not vague at all. I've been having these snippets pop up in my mind here and there, seemingly randomly over the past few weeks. I'm not… Continue reading Freaking Frigid – A Memory

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I assure you that, yes, Emma is fine

Oh geez, it seems like, once again, I have been gone from WordPress much longer than I had realized. I guess 3 weeks really isn't all that bad in the history of my many random blogging sabbaticals. But I am here once again to assure you that, yes, Emma is fine. I know the last… Continue reading I assure you that, yes, Emma is fine

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Overdramatic, Foundationless Accusations

You have no fucking clue right now. Well, if you have a mother like mine perhaps you do. I have reached the last straw with this woman. I dunno if I have the energy, honestly, to explain the whole thing right now. Suffice it to say my mum is a crazy narcissistic bitch who is… Continue reading Overdramatic, Foundationless Accusations