David, memories, relationships, Uncategorized, Wyatt

Not When He’s Smiling

"He doesn't look abusive," she said when I showed her a picture of my ex. "No, I suppose he doesn't," I responded. Thinking to myself at least not when he's smiling... if he was screaming in her face, she wouldn't think that. It was always fun with him around, until it wasn't. He was always… Continue reading Not When He’s Smiling

David, Husband, relationships, Uncategorized, Wyatt

My Idiosyncrasies

Get ready for a ramble fest y'all. Last night hubs said something that made me think... I have been blaming Wyatt for instilling a lot of negative relationship behaviours in me... and to an extent I think that's still true, but perhaps I've been bred to be ... How did he put it? ... I… Continue reading My Idiosyncrasies

David, Excerise, memories, relationships, Uncategorized

Far Away From My Corporeal Body

I had another dream about David on Christmas Eve. Unexpected, it's been several months if not longer since I've had one of those. I'm not sure if something actually triggered it, or if it was just my brain saying "hey,  guess what we haven't dreamt about in awhile?" Whenever I have these dreams, they always… Continue reading Far Away From My Corporeal Body

relationships, support, Uncategorized

He Out Weighed Me by at Least 100 Lbs

Today, in honor of Domestic Violence Awareness Month, I am sharing an old friend's abuse story, these are her words as she shared them with me. Her identity is purposely withheld. People seem to think if someone abuses you then that must have been that way your whole relationship, when usually that’s not the case.… Continue reading He Out Weighed Me by at Least 100 Lbs

Adventures in Dating, David, Husband, Posts With Off Site Links, relationships, support, Uncategorized, Wyatt

Domestic Violence Awareness Month

Two days until October, and you know what that means! No, no... well... yes, Halloween; but that's not what I'm here to talk about this evening. It was brought to my attention today that here in America, October is Domestic Violence Awareness Month. One of the other blogs I follow (When I Thought I was… Continue reading Domestic Violence Awareness Month

Best of, memories, relationships, support, Uncategorized

Reblogging Emma: Tell Your Stories (revamped)

Post #6 in my recycling series... only 2-3 more to go, I promise 😉 This one is from September 2015 and the content has been changed a fair bit (the second half deleted and replaced by different content) so it is not actually by rights the same post 🙂 My friend posted a quote on FB for… Continue reading Reblogging Emma: Tell Your Stories (revamped)

David, depression, Husband, Leroy, Uncategorized

No Longer Woefully Tattooless

I've been wanting a tattoo since I was 17. I've told you all this before. I was never the type to jump in for such a permanent addition to my body without being absolutely sure I would love it forever... So I gave myself time limits to think on ideas and if I had any… Continue reading No Longer Woefully Tattooless

Adventures in Dating, David, Excerise, memories, relationships, Uncategorized, Wyatt

Intense As…

I have a new friend you guise. Another American that recently moved here, and we have so much in common, it seems. I went to her house yesterday for an Art date (Just sit around and chat while being creative - it's been a good 7ish years since I've had a friend to do that… Continue reading Intense As…

relationships, Uncategorized

Girl-That-Looks-Like-Me

Several years ago I had a man tell me that I wasn't his type. That in and of itself was not a terrible thing - I've had several guys say that at some point... Not entirely pleasant either... buuuut.... With this man it really stung. It was the way he said it. It made me… Continue reading Girl-That-Looks-Like-Me

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Anywhoozle – a review of Amy Schumer’s book “The Girl With The Lower Back Tattoo”

Good Morning, Lovelies. I finished Amy Schumer’s book “The Girl with the Lower Back Tattoo” last night, and Ariel Lynn has asked me to do an actual book review – so here we go!   Ms Schumer’s book is a collection of autobiographical essays that range from the expected humorous to challenging and at times… Continue reading Anywhoozle – a review of Amy Schumer’s book “The Girl With The Lower Back Tattoo”

Andre, Best Friends, Dan, Dane, David, Husband, Justin, memoir, memories, nostalgia, relationships, Sven, teenage years, Uncategorized, Viktor, Wyatt

Taylor Swift Gets Me : Reprise

While we’re on the topic of Taylor Swift, I went back and perused my posts from February 2015 – when I started this blog – and came across one of the first posts I had written that was also a I-have-a-girl-crush-on-Taylor kind of post. What I had done is compiled and mashed up several of… Continue reading Taylor Swift Gets Me : Reprise

Adventures in Dating, memories, nostalgia, relationships, Uncategorized, Wyatt

Our Song – You’ll Always be a Part of Me

As I drove along in the rain drizzle towards work, I listened to Taylor Swift’s Fearless album. It had been awhile since I had listened to Taylor, so I turned it up as I crested over the bridge headed out of town. Firstly, I’d like to say that some of you may know that I… Continue reading Our Song – You’ll Always be a Part of Me

Best of, David, relationships, Uncategorized, Wyatt

Trivializing our experiences

A few days ago, I read a woman's blog in which she spoke of a severe flash back she had in relation to a previous abusive relationship. At first I was very much touched by her account, and then... she said "don't ask!!" her who this (apparently godly?) man had been as she won't ruin… Continue reading Trivializing our experiences

memories, relationships, Uncategorized

Becoming Stronger

Wow, you guise. I've been receiving some awesome feedback about the guest post I did ( "One Day" ) for Carla Louise's blog - both there, on my reblog, and in my private messages. It's an amazing feeling to have others connect with your writing; and from what one blogger commented today - to receive some credit for… Continue reading Becoming Stronger

relationships, Uncategorized, Wyatt

My God, it’s been two years

I just realized that National Child Protection week is nearly upon us again, which led me to realize that it's been two years since I Said It Out Loud. Wow, has it really been that long? It's been a crazy two years. I look back on how I was in 2014, when I was figuratively… Continue reading My God, it’s been two years

memories, relationships, Uncategorized, Wyatt

Being a Desdemona

Today I was out to lunch with some of the Jiu Jitsu girls after training and one of them started to complain that she wanted to see the Melbourne Ballet company perform Romeo and Juliet at our local arts centre tonight - but no one would go with her. I told her I had been… Continue reading Being a Desdemona

David, Excerise, relationships, Uncategorized, Wyatt

War Wounds

After training today, the girls present sat in a circle on the mat as we stretched and chatted. I showed them a sizeable bruise on my knee that I had earned the Saturday before that still had some dark indigo emanating from it... Something I had tried to take pictures of to show a couple… Continue reading War Wounds

David, Excerise, Husband, memories, relationships, Uncategorized, Wyatt

He got me against a wall

This weekend at Jiu Jitsu training, we had a new lady start. As we were talking she said something I've heard before - she imparted the advice her boyfriend had given her. He said that all fights eventually get taken to the ground, so it would be a benefit for her to do Jiu Jitsu… Continue reading He got me against a wall

memories, relationships, Uncategorized, Wyatt

Equal parts puke and pride

January 2015, I looked Wyatt back up on facebook and sent him a private message with a letter attached. I decided that it was finally time to disagree with him. Last we had spoken, he didn't recall a bad break up. He said he still loved me. He didn't appear to acknowledge any issue with… Continue reading Equal parts puke and pride

Best of, David, Maja, memoir, memories, relationships, Uncategorized, Wyatt

Fuckin’ A, Man… Fuckin’ A

**Liberal use of explicit language** I just watched Fear for the first time in... oh, I dunno... at least a decade, maybe more like 15 years. I messaged Maja several times during the movie - "Fuckin' A" coming from my keyboard more than once. So many fucking similarities to my relationship with Wyatt. A bit… Continue reading Fuckin’ A, Man… Fuckin’ A