anxiety, depression, Husband, support, Uncategorized

I Often Grind My Teeth At Night

I always thought of anxiety as panic attacks with heart palpitations, extreme feelings of fear or worry with a bit of hyperventilation mixed in. I think most people are under that impression. This is why I never considered myself to have anxiety. I have only had, from what I recall, one full blown panic attack… Continue reading I Often Grind My Teeth At Night

David, relationships, Uncategorized, Wyatt

God, just move on already, Emma!

I've been sitting here for an hour, one sentence written - since deleted. I've had this vague sense of what I would write about, but it's hard to express the swirling thoughts about it in my head. I've had the passing thought about the topic for a few days, and then today I stumbled upon… Continue reading God, just move on already, Emma!

David, depression, Husband, memories, relationship, relationships, Uncategorized, Wyatt

I’ve Caught The Feels

The thing is, for many years, I built up my walls and buried emotions deep down... I'd remain calm and like a duck out of water, I'd let a whole lot of stuff roll off my back. Eventually my suppressed emotions would bubble over until I breathed fire if and when certain people stepped over… Continue reading I’ve Caught The Feels

Best Friends, Maja, svea, Uncategorized

The feels… They hurt: Stockholm

I have a note to myself that indicates I should remember that I wanted to write about that time a car came through a window of an establishment, narrowly missing me - as my next blog post returning from Reblogging Rae for the past two weeks. Instead, it seems crass at the moment to write… Continue reading The feels… They hurt: Stockholm

memories, relationships, Sven, Uncategorized

Writing My Heart Out

I've been absent for a few days, as you can see - but to be honest several of you did see the post I posted two days ago that I have since made private. I had a bit of a crisis in my personal life since posting that and thought maybe it was best, for… Continue reading Writing My Heart Out

Adventures in Dating, memories, nostalgia, relationships, Uncategorized

A Thousand Times More Disturbing

"That's awful," people often say to me. I tend to shrug my shoulders. I hadn't been looking for sympathy or anything by telling them one of my stories... or posting it online so that they comment digitally on the distressing aspects of a story. I don't tell these stories for sympathy. I've moved past a… Continue reading A Thousand Times More Disturbing

depression, support, Uncategorized

St Patrick’s day, 2016

I've mentioned before my hatred for St Patrick's day and how I tend to get depressed this time of year, culminating on St Patrick's day. But this year feels different. First of all, I kept just... forgetting that's what today was. I also was in a pretty good mood - certainly didn't hurt my mood… Continue reading St Patrick’s day, 2016

Dan, memories, relationships, support, teenage years, Uncategorized, youth

“Teenage Drama”

I had an interesting conversation with another adult involved with Cadets recently. In which she mentioned that she had never been exposed to such "Teenage Drama" before moving here and working with the youth we work with now. I was like "You mean... besides high school, right?" No, no she didn't... she meant ever. I… Continue reading “Teenage Drama”

Best of, Dan, memoir, relationships

The world didn’t burn

Have you ever had the urge to watch the world burn, as they say? To just throw caution to the wind and let the chips fall where they may? I had that urge yesterday. It may not seem like a big deal to you, but for me telling Dan anything about my feelings is like… Continue reading The world didn’t burn