Best Friends, Dane, David, relationships

You and Me, Emma

Dane and I are talking again... To an extent. For those of you that have followed me for the past several years, I'm sure you are sighing and rolling your eyes at this point. "What the fuck, Emma," I hear you mutter under your breath. "Just walk away and for fucks' sake stay away." Ok,… Continue reading You and Me, Emma

Dan, Dane, David, Husband, Jimmy, Sven, Viktor, Wyatt

I Was A Slut For Sleeping With Him

Write it down, I'm told. Anything you can remember, just write it down. The thing is you want me to remember, to recall events, to be able to tell you about them - but you fail to understand that these particulars, the particulars I am ashamed of, were not that important to me. Not in… Continue reading I Was A Slut For Sleeping With Him

anxiety, depression, Husband

Unpack All The Boxes

I am aware. I am aware of the fact that my actions and reactions in relationships can be categorized as bad, just as bad. Perhaps even worse. Considering I've had such actions used against me. Relationships that changed my entire view of how relationships work and how to, shall we say... survive them. Emotional manipulations,… Continue reading Unpack All The Boxes

anxiety, Best Friends, Dane, Maja, svea, Uncategorized

Being a Nothing-of-Consequence

My anxiety is rising. I was in a good mood earlier today, and I plan on feeling okay tomorrow... The thing is that as the holiday season starts, I am catching ripples of anxiety - like waves of salt hitting my face, suddenly so that I don't have time to close my mouth. I sputter… Continue reading Being a Nothing-of-Consequence

Justin, memories, nostalgia, relationships, Uncategorized, Wyatt, youth

Scary eyes

Now - back to some more regular programming. LOL as in - not just a whole bunch of pictures. Back to old themes and old memories - or in this case memories forgotten. In my first Treasures post, I mentioned a journal entry in one of the journals I shared with Anneke. It was a… Continue reading Scary eyes

Adventures in Dating, David, Excerise, memories, relationships, Uncategorized, Wyatt

Intense As…

I have a new friend you guise. Another American that recently moved here, and we have so much in common, it seems. I went to her house yesterday for an Art date (Just sit around and chat while being creative - it's been a good 7ish years since I've had a friend to do that… Continue reading Intense As…

Adventures in Dating, David, memories, relationships, Uncategorized

Come on, dude. WTF?

When I was 25, later in the year after shit went down with David and then Dane and they were gone - I had one of my good friends invite me over to meet her new boyfriend. I had told her I wasn't feeling well (turns out I was pregnant with my first child, but… Continue reading Come on, dude. WTF?

Adventures in Dating, teenage years, Uncategorized, youth

Dear Mr Harris

Earlier this week I wrote about a trigger I had when I came across someone that mentioned Joshua Harris' 1997 book "I Kissed Dating Goodbye." Today I got a comment from Kristen over at The Ungodly Woman who let me know that Mr Harris has started apologizing to people for the negative effects of his… Continue reading Dear Mr Harris

Adventures in Dating, memoir, memories, relationships, teenage years, Uncategorized, youth

Fuck it, I dated

Who remembers that book "I Kissed Dating Goodbye" by Josh Harris? Ah, that's right... now I can tell which of you grew up in the evangelical youth culture. I just read a blog that mentioned that book, and man it took me back... It took me back to the evangelical days of my youth in which… Continue reading Fuck it, I dated

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Anywhoozle – a review of Amy Schumer’s book “The Girl With The Lower Back Tattoo”

Good Morning, Lovelies. I finished Amy Schumer’s book “The Girl with the Lower Back Tattoo” last night, and Ariel Lynn has asked me to do an actual book review – so here we go!   Ms Schumer’s book is a collection of autobiographical essays that range from the expected humorous to challenging and at times… Continue reading Anywhoozle – a review of Amy Schumer’s book “The Girl With The Lower Back Tattoo”

Adventures in Dating, Andre, David, Husband, Jimmy, memoir, memories, relationship, relationships, Sven, teenage years, Viktor, Wyatt, youth

Dissociation and Flippancy

I just picked up Amy Schumer's book "The Girl with the Lower Back Tattoo." I came across it yesterday at our local Kmart, I reached out and picked it up without a second thought. Not even considering the price as I would usually do. That's because I've long considered her my spirit animal - a… Continue reading Dissociation and Flippancy

Andre, Best Friends, Dan, Dane, David, Husband, Justin, memoir, memories, nostalgia, relationships, Sven, teenage years, Uncategorized, Viktor, Wyatt

Taylor Swift Gets Me : Reprise

While we’re on the topic of Taylor Swift, I went back and perused my posts from February 2015 – when I started this blog – and came across one of the first posts I had written that was also a I-have-a-girl-crush-on-Taylor kind of post. What I had done is compiled and mashed up several of… Continue reading Taylor Swift Gets Me : Reprise

Adventures in Dating, memories, nostalgia, relationships, Uncategorized, Wyatt

Our Song – You’ll Always be a Part of Me

As I drove along in the rain drizzle towards work, I listened to Taylor Swift’s Fearless album. It had been awhile since I had listened to Taylor, so I turned it up as I crested over the bridge headed out of town. Firstly, I’d like to say that some of you may know that I… Continue reading Our Song – You’ll Always be a Part of Me

Best of, David, relationships, Uncategorized, Wyatt

Trivializing our experiences

A few days ago, I read a woman's blog in which she spoke of a severe flash back she had in relation to a previous abusive relationship. At first I was very much touched by her account, and then... she said "don't ask!!" her who this (apparently godly?) man had been as she won't ruin… Continue reading Trivializing our experiences

memories, relationships, Uncategorized

Becoming Stronger

Wow, you guise. I've been receiving some awesome feedback about the guest post I did ( "One Day" ) for Carla Louise's blog - both there, on my reblog, and in my private messages. It's an amazing feeling to have others connect with your writing; and from what one blogger commented today - to receive some credit for… Continue reading Becoming Stronger

relationships, Uncategorized, Wyatt

My God, it’s been two years

I just realized that National Child Protection week is nearly upon us again, which led me to realize that it's been two years since I Said It Out Loud. Wow, has it really been that long? It's been a crazy two years. I look back on how I was in 2014, when I was figuratively… Continue reading My God, it’s been two years

Adventures in Dating, Best Friends, Dane, relationships, Uncategorized

Seriously. Stop it.

I have a pet peeve... not so much a pet peeve I suppose; more something that initially annoys me and then makes me feel sorry for people - in the end not affecting my personal feelings terribly much. But as I write about relationships sometimes - and have so far become that person for several… Continue reading Seriously. Stop it.

David, Excerise, relationships, Uncategorized, Wyatt

War Wounds

After training today, the girls present sat in a circle on the mat as we stretched and chatted. I showed them a sizeable bruise on my knee that I had earned the Saturday before that still had some dark indigo emanating from it... Something I had tried to take pictures of to show a couple… Continue reading War Wounds

David, Excerise, Husband, memories, relationships, Uncategorized, Wyatt

He got me against a wall

This weekend at Jiu Jitsu training, we had a new lady start. As we were talking she said something I've heard before - she imparted the advice her boyfriend had given her. He said that all fights eventually get taken to the ground, so it would be a benefit for her to do Jiu Jitsu… Continue reading He got me against a wall

memories, relationships, Uncategorized, Wyatt

Equal parts puke and pride

January 2015, I looked Wyatt back up on facebook and sent him a private message with a letter attached. I decided that it was finally time to disagree with him. Last we had spoken, he didn't recall a bad break up. He said he still loved me. He didn't appear to acknowledge any issue with… Continue reading Equal parts puke and pride