Write it down, I'm told. Anything you can remember, just write it down. The thing is you want me to remember, to recall events, to be able to tell you about them - but you fail to understand that these particulars, the particulars I am ashamed of, were not that important to me. Not in… Continue reading I Was A Slut For Sleeping With Him
I splurged on a new laptop. You guys... she's glorious. She's an Asus Vivobook. It was just in time, too. I ordered her because I'm starting my BSN next semester, and I happened to make a butt tonne of money at my travel nursing job last week (three days of work and made more than… Continue reading She’s Glorious
It's been awhile since I've let you all know the status of my rewrite for my first book... so here it is. Too be honest I decided to write this update because I basically needed to shift focus from my mess of a manuscript right now! Ah! I had my friend Klutzy go through the… Continue reading Writer’s Update
I'm feeling a little bummed. A little unmotivated... It might be partially because my period is supposed to start tomorrow. It may be my kids being sick the past couple of days... or the random interactions or annoyances of the past few weeks that build up and push down on my mood. I dunno.... Or… Continue reading The Puzzle That is My Mental Health
Ah, here we go again. I've put this aside for too long as I've worked on other projects, but I think I am now ready to pick up my original book ("I Will Not Live in Vain") and finish the 2nd edition that I started working on well over a year ago... Two years ago?… Continue reading I Will Not Live In Vain
It hit me dead on; a slap in the face and a punch in the gut simultaneously. I saw a picture of Wyatt and it initiated a wave of nausea that washed over me, no, rather it billowed like a storm surge. I can't explain why I felt the way I did. It doesn't always… Continue reading It Billowed Like a Storm Surge
I always thought of anxiety as panic attacks with heart palpitations, extreme feelings of fear or worry with a bit of hyperventilation mixed in. I think most people are under that impression. This is why I never considered myself to have anxiety. I have only had, from what I recall, one full blown panic attack… Continue reading I Often Grind My Teeth At Night
I'm gonna talk about temptation today - the temptation to eat sweets and drink bubbling sugary caffeine goodness that is coursing through me right now. Also, the temptation to smack a ... well, you know. It actually, has been a lot easier than I thought to stay away from sweets for the couple of weeks… Continue reading This Kind of Fuckery
Did I say this wouldn't become a weight-loss blog? I may have lied... Because OMG you guys, I've got diet stuff to talk about again. Haha... I swear at some point I'll change topic again... Let's just consider this a "weight-loss series" in the meantime... Like I totally meant to do this. So last time… Continue reading Green Tea FTW!
Day 3. Okay, you guys. I promise this won't turn into a weight-loss blog, but I feel the need to get some stuff out there regarding this struggle I'm having. So once in awhile you'll have to deal with my complaining, er, updates, or pass a post by occasionally LOL. That being said. It's Day… Continue reading It’s Day 3
Eight Years ago or so I was a skinny minnie. Hell, you've seen my teenager pics... I was so much closer to my teen weight right after having my daughter. I was a size 14 immediately after having pushed her out whereas I had been a size 16-18 at the time of her conception. Teenage… Continue reading Orange Eating Paraphernalia
As I sit on this old couch, in front of a fire that is dying despite my best efforts to build the biggest, warmest fire ever, and as I sip my hot chocolate in an effort to stay warmer still... My heater died a couple of days ago, the day before a snow storm here… Continue reading Badass Flight Nurse, Viking, or Whatever
I stated at one point, in a very privileged manner, on my 'About Emma' page that "My blog contains some entries that have to do with my travels – but not much. This is not a travel blog. It’s probably because I have had my own fair share of travel, and though there are still… Continue reading Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
Whoops, I meant to sit and write this yesterday... but then... I didn't. Lol. I just wanted to point out, as WordPress so kindly did, that yesterday was the 3 year anniversary of this blog. My 3 year blogiversary, if you will. Yaay, woot, hurrah, etc etc I wasn't even sure if have much of… Continue reading Yaay, Woot, Hurrah, etc etc
Get ready for a ramble fest y'all. Last night hubs said something that made me think... I have been blaming Wyatt for instilling a lot of negative relationship behaviours in me... and to an extent I think that's still true, but perhaps I've been bred to be ... How did he put it? ... I… Continue reading My Idiosyncrasies
I'm getting to the point in this blog that I'm not so sure what I have or have not talked about here anymore. I was talking to my sister late a few nights ago and said "Clearly this will be my next blog topic," but when I started to think about it I realized that...… Continue reading A Shred of Support
Oh geez, it's past 11 PM on New Year's day and I still haven't written my obligatory New Year's post... How are you all supposed to know what my resolutions are, or how great or terrible 2017 was, or what my sights for 2018 are if I don't write a blog post about it?! First… Continue reading Obligatory New Year’s Post
I had another dream about David on Christmas Eve. Unexpected, it's been several months if not longer since I've had one of those. I'm not sure if something actually triggered it, or if it was just my brain saying "hey, guess what we haven't dreamt about in awhile?" Whenever I have these dreams, they always… Continue reading Far Away From My Corporeal Body
What makes him love me? What made the others not really care about me? Sometimes I think I'm pretty good at reading people, situations, and relationships... When I pay attention that is. At least I used to think that. Over the past year or so, maybe it's been brewing longer... I've realized I often don't… Continue reading Maybe There’s Hope for Me Yet
I let a friendship go today. Not just any friendship, a best-friendship. Something I've been mulling over for a while now, and while I was sitting in church this morning; likely listening to a very similar sermon to what he'd be listening to, I knew I just needed to rip the bandage off and get… Continue reading Until then… Bye Dane.